As promised, here is an update on my life.
I got a job. I am a barista for a few mornings a week at a local cafe.
I do customer service, take orders, short order cooking, make drinks, and cleaning (dishes, wiping tables, etc...). And because of my availability and Ty's job, I work opening, which means I set the cafe up and all of that fun stuff. It is a fast paced, but a social and fun job. My manager and owner are pretty awesome and are very understanding of my anxiety issues, as well as excellent in the way they help me improve my performance.
It feels nice to have my own cash, and last week I got my first actual pay check in almost four years! I am able to help out with Christmas, and I have major plans for a book nook in our bedroom with my extra money.
Tips are super nice, too. It means every day I work, I have some extra money in my wallet.
It has been an uphill battle.
I spent the first few weeks dreading going to work. I didn't think I could do it. I felt weak and exhausted. My feet hurt, my anxiety rocketed through the roof, and if I wasn't at work, I was incapable of anything because I was so worn down from the anxiety of being at work.
And, this is a job that I enjoy doing. I rock at it.
Well, yesterday, I had an amazing day at work.
My feet didn't hurt quite so much, my anxiety didn't kick in, and I didn't come home and become useless. I actually got quite a bit done when I got home.
My cash tips were higher than normal, and I had more positive interaction with some of the major regulars.
And now today, I got to sleep in (thanks to Ty), and I have kicked butt. I even baked a cake! Gonna frost it after I finish this and I'm sure that Whimzy has eaten enough dinner.
It feels wonderful to feel productive and happy.
The next few weeks are going to be very hectic, though. Busy and little time to unwind from work, school, and being Mommy. Also, today was probably my last day to sleep past 6:30 am for a few weeks. And, sleeping in is one of my major sanity savers.
I am cautiously excited that I found a perfect blend of vitamins and meds to get me through life right now, but I am also scared to death that this is a fluke and I am going to crash.
On the plus side, I have some awesome blog ideas for you guys! I hope to notch up my level of funny, because, let me tell you, I hear the craziest things at work!
I also plan on writing more, especially now that my life is a little bit more exciting and varied. I hope that those of you that have been reading continue to read, and I hope that you tell your friends about me :) It makes me feel special ;)
Until later, lovers!